Saturday Night.
I left home with reasonable expectations of what the night before me held, a night of fun with good friends. The night started out hopeful, friends, laughs, many drinks, then the unthinkable happened.
While waiting at the bar I looked to my right and about 5 meters away, instant eye contact, sick feeling in the gut. Two women staring directly at me, jaws dropped. I knew exactly who they were. They waved me over, and over I went. Immediately I was kissed and hugged. These women were once like 2nd mothers to me, they were our family but something happened and changed that. I was too young at the time but I think I’m old enough to know now.
I hadn’t seen/heard from them in over 7yrs yet they were talking to me as if it wasn’t a big deal, as though we could just pick up from where we left things. They may have known me then but they don’t now. They have missed so much of our lives, they’ve missed all the birthdays, the formals, grads, me coming out, everything.
They seemed so happy to see me and disappointed it had been so long, but if that is so, why had they made no effort to contact me, see me.
Yes, life is short but i don’t know if I can just act like nothing has changed and nothing has happened.
I need answers, I need to know what really happened that one night all those years ago, I need the truth.
